Imperceptible Me

and it’s not love either.

well…kind of.

this past summer, i’ve been saying goodbye to a couple of people. one was janelle (a.k.a. jim, jimmeroo, janellita baklita), and the other was therese (a.k.a. thet).

they’ve both migrated to the US of A this summer, and it’s made me experienced certain feelings that i’ve never felt before.

i’ve never really missed anything or anyone as much as i miss them now, and a year hasn’t even gone past!
the fact that they’re not here anymore and that they’re now halfway across the world still hasn’t sunk in yet, but i hope it does.  because i still feel like they’re here, like i could just call their house and ask for them and they’ll come to the phone and talk with me, like before. but i know it’ll never happen.

the school year’s started and academics is going to keep my mind off things for a moment, but i don’t think it’ll help me get over this.

but i just HAVE to! or else i’ll suffer for the rest of my life…

this same feeling i felt when gaye went to singapore after graduation (but just for a month) and when my cousins from america went home after their two (or one) month visit here. i felt especially sad when my cousins went home because we were told that we wouldn’t see each other for two years. TWO WHOLE YEARS! it’s unbearable! i felt unenthusiastic for weeks!

but eventually, i assured myself that with patience, two years of waiting would be a breeze.

so, i think with a little patience now, a little waiting wouldn’t hurt.

jim said she would return during the christmas holidays, so it’s definitely something to look forward to.

and even though thet hasn’t said anything yet about returning here for a visit, i think it would be a very nice surprise if she mentions when.

hey, a little patience never hurt anyone.