Imperceptible Me

just songs that i can relate to…probably won’t mean something to other people, but these lyrics mean a lot to ME. here goes:

some lyrics from jann arden’s "you don’t know me"

you give your hand to me
and then you say "hello"
and i can hardly speak
my heart is beating so
and anyone can tell
you think you know me well
but you don’t know me

no, you don’t know the one
who dreams of you at night
and longs to kiss your lips
longs to hold you tight
oh, i am just a friend
that’s all i’ve ever been
’cause you don’t know me

…afraid and shy
i let my chance go by
the chance that you might
love me too

you give your hand to me
and then you say goodbye
i watch you walk away
beside a lucky girl
oh, you will never know
the one who loves you so
well, you don’t know me

some lyrics from jojo’s "secret love"

just a friend
that’s all i’ve ever been
to you
oh, just a girl
who wants to be the center
of your world

but i ain’t got much to offer
but my heart and soul
and i guess that’s not enough
for you to notice me
i’m just your girl
and i guess that’s all i’ll ever be
to you
to you

i try to smile when i see
other girls with you
acting like everything
is okay, but oh,
you don’t know how it feels
to be so in love
with someone who doesn’t even know
my secret love

in my dreams
i see us both together constantly
why can’t you see
there’s love that’s there for you
inside of me

what do i have to do
for you to notice this?
you look at her with love
for me it’s just friendship
i’m just your girl
and i guess that’s all i’ll ever be
to you
to you, you

what do you see in her
you don’t see in me?
boy, you’re so hard to believe
why do you show her love
but there’s none for me

is it because
i ain’t got much to offer
but my heart and soul
and i guess that’s not enough for you
to notice me
i’m just your girl
and i guess that’s all i’ll ever be
to you
to you, you, you

haay…how sad.

*sigh*

over and out.

i once watched an episode of "Unfabulous" where Addie was treated by almost everyone as if she’s invisible.

i can’t say that i can relate to her that day. i mean, i’ve practically made it clear that sometimes, i DO want to be invisible; imperceptible as air.
maybe it’s probably because i’m tired of all the attention that i’m getting. i’m not saying that i’m always the center of attention. what i mean is that sometimes, i’d like to draw most of that attention away from me.

plus, if i can really BE invisible (you know, have invisibility powers like Violet Parr in the "incredibles"), i can do all sorts of cool stuff. like follow my crush around the campus and see what he does (besides attend classes).
sounds very stalker-ish of me, i know. it gives me the creeps.

anyway, in that "unfabulous" episode, i saw the disadvantage of being invisible. like not being able to get people’s attention when you need something. food, for instance (in case you can’t get any…).

but this still doesn’t change my answer to the question "if you could have one superpower, what would it be?"

i would still answer "invisibility". because it’s just too cool an idea to get rid of. heehee…

anyway, moving on to more REAL topics, i can hardly wait for the day when my friends transfer to diliman from the manila and baguio campuses. i just can’t wait!

i just don’t know what i’d do without them. they’re my lifesavers! i firmly believe that i can’t have survived high school without them.

i love my best friends. they mean the world to me. they probably know that by now, but i just can’t seem to stop saying it. my best friends mean the world to me.

of course, besides my family and God, my best friends are my 2nd priority. if they tell me that they’re coming home for the weekend, i would wait for the day so impatiently, nadadamay tuloy ung mga tao sa paligid ko. i would start telling people how excited i am for one of my best friends’ homecoming, even if it IS just for one or two days.

i also make it a point to communicate with them on the phone at least ONCE during their stay.

but sometimes, if they didn’t tell me that they went down for the weekend (like gaye often does) or if i didn’t get to read their text message (like i USUALLY do), they would be the ones calling me.
and i would put aside everything i do just to talk to them.
that’s how much they mean to me.

oh-kay, i’m getting a little mushy here. better go.