Imperceptible Me

naks naman, ganda ng title. well, that IS what this entry is gonna be about. reaching for what seemed unreachable at first.

but before anything else, let me just get one thing off my chest:

CURSE THAT PERSON WHO EVER INVENTED THE SUBJECT ENGINEERING DRAWING!!!!!!!!!

*sigh* i feel so much better now. won’t explain what THAT was about, though. long story. and that’s not even what this entry is about.

okay, things that seemed unreachable…for me. hee…

guess i’d better start off with people. okay, i’m always surrounded by achievers. my whole life, actually. if not achievers, at least people with a lot of talent in something. or even being able to do something that is otherwise "undo-able" in my part.

i used to feel so inferior compared to them. (yes, i AM suffering from inferiority complex…can’t help it, you know!) but then i realized that having them around wasn’t so bad after all.

instead of just sitting down, watching them do those great things that i’m not able to do, i pushed myself to be like them. and that’s a good thing because it makes you aim for the best, therefore perform at your best. and sometimes those best efforts yield the best results (take note of the word, "sometimes").

examples…hm…let’s see…aha! i know! the day when my cousins and i went ice skating in megamall. they were all skating so fast, both forward and backward, while i was left eating their dust. but because i wanted to skate like them, it took some time for me to be skating real fast (the technique is to bend low, hockey player style) and slowly skating backwards (still working on this…have to practice!). but at least i was able to do it!

yeah, i know, it’s kind of a shallow example. i thought so too, but i just wanted to skate backwards so badly! heehee…

then there’s my partner in my P.E. class (wall climbing). she’s really good at climbing, very light and speedy. i thought i would never be like her, but with her help, i’m somehow able to develop those skills that she has. well, almost. i still can’t finish the "into the woods" wall, though. it’s hard.

the only thing that seems unreachable right now is my passing the ES 1 subject. i’m kinda thinking of dropping it and redoing it over the summer, but…i don’t know, i just don’t want to quit. i don’t wanna be called a quitter again.

I WON’T, AND I’LL NEVER BE!

okay, gotta sleep. i’m really sleepy. i haven’t had a good night’s sleep since midterms week started (damn midterms…)

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