Imperceptible Me

after our second meeting, i thought sports climbing was going to be super hard. and it IS, actually. but i can proudly say that i’m getting better by every meeting.

not that i’m bragging or anything, but it’s true. but of course, there are still these walls that i absolutely CANNOT finish. but i will, someday. i’ve got to think positive.

every class i just keep on getting the hang of it. it’s so cool to see myself get better at something. because i’m not usually like this. i don’t get any better at some things that i attempt to do.

i usually have this tendency to underestimate myself. no, it’s not just a tendency. i actually TELL myself that i’ll never be good at ANYTHING. hmph, just call it an inferiority complex, which i inherited.

but it’s actually true. examples:

–>i try to write and get better, but i never do…at least, i think i don’t.
–>i tried to sharpen my soccer skills, but i can’t
–>i tried to play the piano, but unfortunately i’m too lazy to teach myself
–>i try to practice and get better at engineering drawing, but i’m absolutely hopeless

talk about THAT, huh?
i mean, what KIND of person am i? why don’t i believe in myself? because i believe that to be able to achieve something, you have to believe that you can do it. but i actually don’t follow my own belief. or even if i try, i easily lose yung bilib ko sa sarili ko. i don’t know why…but does it mean that i’m a quitter?

i still believe that i’m a quitter, though. but this time, i’m trying NOT to.

and look what i’ve gotten myself: i’m actually getting better in wall climbing!

just goes to show that hard work never EVER goes unrewarded.

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