Imperceptible Me

my preggy tita finally gave birth yesterday…it was a set of twins!!! AIEEEEE!!!! i’m so so SO happy and excited to see them!
she and my tito wanted a baby girl. but instead, God gave them twins…BOY twins…
but for me, it doesn’t matter! i’m so excited to have identical twins in the family!

rarely anyone has twins. my dad is a twin himself, but not identical. his twin is my ninang.

*perkily (is there such a word?) bouncing on heels* i am really really really REALLY excited!!!! i don’t know what my deal is with identical twins, but i’m just very excited to have twin cousins!

oh yeah, i’m also expecting that tesa has arrived yesterday and is now staying with her dad.
i hope this visit of hers will turn out great.
i’m planning on taking her ice skating if she has the time. she needn’t worry about the cost. i’m treating her. (grabe, ang yaman ko naman. hehe…no, it’s called saving money…Ü)(*gasp* i ACTUALLY saved money??)

i’m really excited about meeting tesa today! i haven’t seen her since we met over the summer in cubao and i remember, all we did was spend time in a internet shop in farmer’s plaza. my sister and cousins were there with us, and that’s where we took these pictures and also when we created a "salagonz" account (me, my sister and my cousins’ last names combined…salazar and gonzales…heehee…clever, huh? my cousins were the ones who thought of that). and then, in one of our pictures, tesa was there so…yeah, we had a great time and my cousins really liked hanging out with tesa (i mean, what’s not to like? tesa’s really makulit and very approachable and friendly. my cousins had a really great time with her).

oh, i miss tesa SO MUCH!
i wish gaye was here too so we could all hang out together, the three of us, just like before (i won’t say "just like the old times" because it would only make me feel old…).

have to go. my mom has to use the computer.

as always, i have something weird lined up for today. just some songs and what i relate them to whenever i hear them.
yep, no personal stuff today. just a plain old list of songs that i associate things with. wala kasi akong magawa kaya ito ang ginagawa ko:

You’ll Be Safe Here by rivermaya
–whenever i hear this, i am reminded of my high school graduation. kasi naman, patugtugin ba naman ‘to pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng recessional. e di siyempre, iyakan lahat ng tao (na nag-graduate). sinabay rin ‘tong song na ‘to sa isang video which shows all the good times our batch had together.

Complicated by avril lavigne
–when this song is played, i am reminded of my very first soccer game nung second year. because, when we were on our way to IS (International School), which was where the game was to be held, pinatugtog ‘to over the radio and kantahan naman lahat ng teammates ko. saya noh? pampatanggal ng nervousness.

If You’re Not The One by daniel bedingfield
–reminds me of daniel radcliffe. obvious naman e, di ba? pangalan nung singer daniel…

Girl by destiny’s child
–my best friends, gaye and tesa. parang kasi kaming destiny’s child eh: sexy, pretty and magaganda ang boses. hehehe…joke lang! hindi, kasi gaya nung message ng song, we are the bestest friends and we always help each other in anything, no matter what. *stubborn*

Soldier by destiny’s child
–reminds me of SEE-Subic. kinakanta kasi ‘to ng mga pangkat-mates ko nung may mga nakatambay na sundalo sa harap ng campsite namin…hehehe…

Akap by imago
–reminds me of alias. specifically, jack and irina. again, obviously, this is influenced by gaye’s obsessiveness…

Closer by barbie almado (yes, alam ko na ang apelyido niya! tama ba spelling?)
–reminds me of…ano nga ba yun? hay, ewan! basta. *stubborn again*

Brown Eyes by destiny’s child
–hmm…

Thank God I Found You by mariah carey featuring…hindi ko na matandaan…
–again, reminds me of my best friends. ’cause without them, my life would be nothing; dull; hollow…

Weak by jojo (alam kong hindi siya ang original, pero hindi ko kasi kilala ang original singer nitong kantang ‘to eh…)
–reminds me of char. fave song niya kasi ‘to e.

All I Ask Of You by…ewan
–phantom of the opera. siyempre, song ‘to sa play e…hello??

I Try by jonathan brooke
–peter pan 2 (disney). again, song ‘to sa movie, kung san na-iyak ako. (madali talaga akong umiyak! grabe!)

I’m Still Here by john rzeznick
–reminds me of myself.

Clocks by coldplay
–peter pan (ung recent movie lang…ung hindi cartoon…ung cute ung nagplay kay peter pan) kasi, song nga ‘to sa movie.

okay, nagiging senseless na ‘tong mga ‘to. have to stop now.

eto naman, para kay tesa. tesa, i’m talking to you now. etong song na ‘to ay bagay sa ‘yo. eto ung kinanta natin sa labas ng starbucks, as in nasa taft avenue tayo, singing our lungs out. natatandaan ko pa ‘yun kasi pinagtitinginan na tayo ng mga tao ‘nun. here it is:
"Out of Reach" by gabrielle (uy, kapangalan mo, gaye!)
knew the sign’s wasn’t right
i was stupid for a while
swept away by you
and now i feel like a fool

so confused, my heart’s bruised
was i ever loved by you

out of reach so far
i never had your heart
out of reach, couldn’t see
we were never meant to be

catch myself from despair
i can drown if i stay here
keeping busy everyday
i know i will be okay

’cause now i’m
so confused, my heart’s bruised
was i ever loved by you

out of reach so far
i never had your heart
out of reach, couldn’t see
we were never meant to be

so much hurt, so much pain
takes a while to regain
what is lost inside
and i hope that in time
you’ll be out of my mind
i’ll be over you

but now i’m
so confused, my heart’s bruised
was i ever loved by you

out of reach, so far
i never had your heart
out of reach, couldn’t see
we were never meant to be

out of reach, so far
you never gave your heart
in my reach, i could see
there’s a life out there for me

o di ba? bagay sa iyong…uh…"situation".
gotta scram! Ü

after our second meeting, i thought sports climbing was going to be super hard. and it IS, actually. but i can proudly say that i’m getting better by every meeting.

not that i’m bragging or anything, but it’s true. but of course, there are still these walls that i absolutely CANNOT finish. but i will, someday. i’ve got to think positive.

every class i just keep on getting the hang of it. it’s so cool to see myself get better at something. because i’m not usually like this. i don’t get any better at some things that i attempt to do.

i usually have this tendency to underestimate myself. no, it’s not just a tendency. i actually TELL myself that i’ll never be good at ANYTHING. hmph, just call it an inferiority complex, which i inherited.

but it’s actually true. examples:

–>i try to write and get better, but i never do…at least, i think i don’t.
–>i tried to sharpen my soccer skills, but i can’t
–>i tried to play the piano, but unfortunately i’m too lazy to teach myself
–>i try to practice and get better at engineering drawing, but i’m absolutely hopeless

talk about THAT, huh?
i mean, what KIND of person am i? why don’t i believe in myself? because i believe that to be able to achieve something, you have to believe that you can do it. but i actually don’t follow my own belief. or even if i try, i easily lose yung bilib ko sa sarili ko. i don’t know why…but does it mean that i’m a quitter?

i still believe that i’m a quitter, though. but this time, i’m trying NOT to.

and look what i’ve gotten myself: i’m actually getting better in wall climbing!

just goes to show that hard work never EVER goes unrewarded.

hindi ko na talaga kaya! bakit ayaw nyang matanggal sa utak ko?? bakit lagi ko siyang iniisip??

hmm…you’re probably thinking, "uuy, mela, sino siya?"
grabe, kung yun ang iniisip niyo, pinagtatawanan ko kayo ngayon.

song siya, ung hindi ko matanggal sa isip ko. eto yun:
"Secret Love" (sung by Jojo)
I try to smile when I see
Other girls with you
Acting like everything
Is okay, but oh
You don’t know how it feels
To be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love

uh, chorus lang alam ko.
ayan nanaman, siguro iniisip niyo ulit, "uuy, meron talaga, mela e. sino ba kasi?"

haay nakoh…ewan ko kung bakit yun ang song na na-stuck sa head ko. and it doesn’t have to do with a certain "someone" (kung sino man siya…).

na-LSS ako sa kantang ‘to siguro kasi people keep requesting it on the radio, in every radio station i tune in to.

ever since nag-aaral na ‘ko sa UP, nagpupuyat na ‘ko nonstop. pero ibang klaseng puyat siya kesa high school. hindi ko alam ang pagkakaiba ng cramming ng college at cramming ng HS, pero alam ko iba sila.

yes, crammer ako nung high school. lahat naman ata ng kulasa ganon eh. (personally, i think that every high school student experiences cramming, even non-kulasas…even non-Filipinos!)
kung ika’y isang present kulasa at never ka pang nagcram sa buong high school life mo, don’t fret. mararanasan mo rin ang cramming.

i actually consider cramming as an art. kaya nga kapag nagrereminisce kaming magba"batsmates" tungkol sa puyat nights, sasabihin namin, "ah, the art of cramming…"

ayun, one of my cramming nights (which was yesterday), nakikinig ako ng radyo (cguro un ang pagkakaiba ng cramming ng HS sa cramming nga college, may radyo ako kasi hindi ako makaconcentrate sa ginagawa ko, whereas nung HS, sobrang tahimik ng kuwarto kung nag-aaral ako. kabaligtaran ng aking college cramming night) tapos napansin ko na ang most requested songs are the following (in no particular order…i’m just going to dictate them randomly):

"wake me up when september ends" by green day
"we belong together" by mariah carey (yes, most requested pa rin siya. or should i say, most played)
"kuwarto" by sugarfree
"stay" by…cno nga ba kumanta nito. hay nakoh, makakinig nga ng radyo…
"just a smile" by barbie (er…hindi ko alam apelyido niya…)

um…un lang ata. yung "secret love" ni jojo medyo konti lang, hindi pala masyadong pineplay. pero, kaya ko siya natandaan kasi dati……

basta.

(don’t give me that knowing look, gaye and tesa. i know what you’re thinking.)

weird talaga. mapapansin mo pa na halos lahat ng mga songs na dinictate ko kanina, memoryado ko ang mga chorus nila (yung sa sugarfree talagang memoryado ko…may cd kami dito sa bahay e).

wla lang…

tska natuwa ako sa mga nagrerequest, lalo na pag halos hating gabi na. yung mga taong tipong magbibigay ng "shout out" sa mga ka-school mates nila. wla lang, natawa ako kasi pa’no naman kung tulog na ung mga shinashout out nila. wala lang…hehehehe…

kaya naisipan kong magbigay rin ng "shout out". pero hindi ko lang sasabihin na "i wanna say hi to block g-15 05-06 of up diliman". eto ang akin:

"i wanna say hi to all the cramming members of block g-15 05-06 of up diliman. good luck sa math 17 natin bukas. sana tamarin si sir na pumasok at wla na tayong test!"

o di ba? para pa-iba naman sa mga "hi to my honey. i love you so much", "hello to anna. please forgive me" o di kaya’y "i wanna say hey to my family: my mama, my papa, my kuya, my ate, my bunsong kapatid, my aso, my pusa….(mentions more family members and pets)".

grabe, radio rantings talaga noh?

tska tama nga naman sina zafra at janelle: lahat ng radio stations claim that they’re "number one"

kung lahat sila number one, e di sinong number two?

huh? teka, hindi ko ata naintindihan ang tinype ko.
ah, whatever. inaantok na ‘ko. puyat night nga ako kahapon, di ba?

have…..to….

…sleep…

zzzz…..

*snore*

(leaves blog unfinished…)
(joke lang! tapos na ang entry na ‘to. pwede na kayong bumalik sa kung ano mang site ang talagang gusto niyong puntahan.)

i just finished writing this poem for CW 10 class tomorrow. i’m posting it because i liked it, unlike the rest of the poems i wrote for that class and even the ones i didn’t write for that class but i just wanted to.

check this out, this is "Mental":

They do not know

how it feels to be

Imprisoned

behind invisible bars;

To be forced to dwell

Alone;

Forced to be looked upon

with an expression of

Disgust,

Hilarity,

or even pity,

Like some common mule

going senile in a zoo

Yet before all this,

everything was pure bliss

And in case anything

goes wrong,

Utopia is just a

mind’s wandering away

But then they put you

in this place where

they say you “belong”

And from then on

you were to face this world

Unaccompanied;

hindered by your inability

To be just like them

And now you sit

In this room

Blinded

by the color

that it lacks to offer

Trapped,

not only by

these four padded walls

and this jacket

that you can’t seem

to move in,

but by your mind as well

Lacking the competence

to co-exist

with the world,

you once again

retreat to that special place

for it always seems to

enliven you

You find in it

Refuge,

Solace,

Serenity,

And these tell you that

another day is worth living

liked it? well, i did. i don’t actually care if you do, but if i can get comments or whatever, it would really help.

thanks!

*SOB!*

*continues to bawl*

i’m SUPPOSED to be reading my HBP book right now, but i thought i’d surf the ‘net. wla lang, gusto ko lang.

think again, muggle.

as sad as i am on the transfer of patrick vieira to juventus, i am also bouncing on my heels in excitement in learning that thierry henry, my favorite arsenal player and complete idol, has been made to replace vieira as team captain!!!

woohoo!!! can this week get any better?

today’s been great, despite the fact that earlier this morning was our first ES 1 (engineering drawing) long exam.

Engineering drawing has got to be the hardest subject that i’ve taken so far. i mean, i get dizzy everytime i attend that class because we work on plates in every meeting.

Hm, you might not understand what i’m saying, (like gaye) so let me explain:
what engineering drawing is: we’re basically just drawing solids for now
what we do in this horrid class (besides the answer "we draw"): lettering, making parallel and perpendicular lines, circles, lines tangent to circles, (and all that geometry stuff), drawing the top, front, and right side faces of a given solid, and drawing a solid from given top, front, and right side faces (in short, the reverse of the previous one).
what a "plate" is: it is just some thick yellow paper that we do our exercises on.

there, you can now understand me. i hope so.
ANYWAY, the ES 1 test was kind of okay, except for the second and fourth problems. (well, i’m more worried about my so-called "answer" in the second problem) in the second problem, we were given this weird-looking solid (which isn’t very surprising since all they give us are really weird-looking solids) that you really don’t know if it was slanted or depressed in the pyramid-looking solid. so all i did was draw what i saw (it was the very last problem that i worked on since i found it hard to visualize it at first, kaya tinamad na ‘ko at kung ano nalang ang dinrowing ko).

whatever, forget about ES.
after the test, some of my blockmates and i went to SM north to watch "herbie: fully loaded". we were laughing all the way to the mall (as in kahit sa loob ng taxi).

our movie was to start on 3:10 so to pass the time, we ate lunch, got pictures taken, and played basketball in the arcade. before we knew it, it was already 3:00 (as in nalimutan talaga namin na manonood kami ng sine ng 3).

all in all, today was a great day. it was like being back in high school, whenever my friends and i would go out: no worries, no problems, just pure fun with a laid-back atmosphere, like nothing is wrong in the world.
whenever you have fun (like we did today), you don’t tend to remember all the stuff that you have to do; you usually forget everything: assignments, quizzes, lessons and all that academic stuff.

well, at least that’s what happens to me. i doubt it happens to everyone, since i’m really forgetful and would rather spend time with friends at the mall than sit home, do my homework while listening to either parent lecturing me about anything concerning my college life.

okay, this post is getting long. and akala ko ba naman kanina na tinatamad akong mag-internet.
tinatamad ako kanina kasi akala ko may kaagaw nanaman ako sa computer na ‘to (ung may internet na mabilis. ayoko mag-internet sa baba kasi ang bagal ng surf maxx…mabilis ang vibe) at nakakatamad makipag-argue sa kapatid ko o kay mama.
have to go now! bye!

(hindi ko nakuha ang copy ko ng HBP kanina kasi wala akong dalang 1000+ na pera…inis…si katmad meron na. last time i heard, nasa chapter 3 na siya…asar! walang spoilers, katmad ha?)
(gaye leaves again tomorrow patungong baguio. have to visit her before she goes…and have to remind her to give tesa that coin purse i bought for her)

i was freaking out this morning when unang hirit featured the release of HBP on tv. i saw these european delivery guys wheeling in about tons of the sixth book.

44% obsessed with Harry Potter

31-60%

• Full time Potter
      fan. You’re obsessed.

wehehehehe!!!!!!! this would probably explain why i was screaming and jumping up and down when i saw that unang hirit feature this morning.

gotta go!