Imperceptible Me

i’m kind of in a weird mood today…it’s called loving, sensitive mood (mode, more like…but i’m not a computer so…yeah.).

i just updated my friendster profile. i put in there how much i miss my best friends. and i do. i really, really, REALLY do. i miss our times together.

you’re probably wondering what triggered this "mood" (i still consider it a mode…but, again, i’m not a computer…). it started yesterday in geography class. our teacher was discussing territories.

she used tambayans as an example. she described the way we students territorize the AS lobby in the first floor. then she started describing as how we students feel at home in it and everything, and that’s when i remembered our fourth year tambayan back in st. scho: the stone tables.

that triggered so many memories, especially the one when graduation was near and i gave Tesa and Gaye a letter, and i made them read it.
while i was writing that letter the night before, i was crying because that was when i realized how much i care for them and how much i would miss them after graduation. so i felt kind of ridiculous while writing that letter.

then, the next day, after grad practice, i made them stay despite the fact that they both have elsewhere to be. while they were reading it, i started crying again, because the feeling i felt the night before came back to me.

gaye didn’t cry, but she was touched, i could tell (we aren’t best friends for nothing, you know). tesa–no surprise–cried. then she hugged me saying, "ma-mimiss rin kita, mela!!"

then we both started laughing despite the tears. gaye was just staring at us with a smile–no, a smirk–on her face. she’s not such a "mushy" person unlike tesa and i. she actually is, deep inside. she just doesn’t show it.

anyway, after watching us hug, gaye was all, "i don’t hug anyone in public." and that was okay for me, ’cause that’s just the way she is.

but then she added, "but then again, you’re not just anyone."

and she hugged me.
(oh, god, tears are starting to well up in my eyes again, just remembering that day)

okay, i don’t wanna cry right here in the computer shop in UP diliman. i still have a CW class to attend. gotta go!

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