how does it feel?
the title of this post came from avril’s "How Does It Feel" in her second album. i was at my cousins’ house in las piñas yesterday and i was fiddling with their stereo. then i remembered that gel has this cd of avril lavigne’s second album, which contains this song that gel and i can absolutely relate to. the song was titled, "Fall To Pieces". i really liked the lyrics, especially the ones in the chorus. they go like this: "i don’t wanna fall to pieces/ i just wanna sit and stare at you/and i don’t wanna talk about it/ and i don’t want a conversation/ i just wanna cry in front of you/ i don’t wanna talk about it/ ’cause i’m in love with you"
that was so beautiful, wasn’t it? anyway, i looked for more songs and i stumbled upon "How Does It Feel". i read the lyrics (which came with the cd) as i listened to the song, and it struck me: this song is kind of like about me. i mean, i’m completely different from everyone else, and people see me as kind of a weird person. i used to be proud being extraordinary, i used to not care what people say to me about how i should change. but when i realized that living by my own rules sometimes turns out to be rude, i stopped to think that being different isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. it sucks to see other people get on with their lives without them having a sort-of personality disorder like i do. other people don’t have a problem with the way the act or think, and i envy them.
avril’s "How Does It Feel" is about being a different person and that person asks a "normal" person about how it feels to be normal, to not watch everything you say, to be able to act as you please without other people giving you the evil eye. i’m kind of wondering about it myself.
how do those normal people feel to be different from me?
how does it feel?
June 9th, 2005 at 8:33 am
Hey., girl. I miss you and your stories way back in third year. How are you doing these days? You could at least let me know! Ahaha.
You know what I’ve realized? Putting labels on yourself won’t do you any good… like calling yourself different just for the sake of being different from everyone else. What’s important is how you see yourself, self-satisfaction, and doing what you love the most. Fuck the world and what it thinks. It’s time for a new you. Go out there, explore the world, its beauty, and how you can be more “you” without putting yourself in a box. You’re too diverse to be put in a box, dear. Go out the window and discover who you are.
I really like you, Mela. You’re such a kind girl with a beautiful soul. Keep the faith and always, ALWAYS, love yourself for being you.
I’m just here and I do hope you get a healthy college life there in UP! Congrats, girl!
Check out my blog [ http://www.yellowsubmarine.blogdrive.com ] I’ll link you, ‘kay? =)